--==SGH==--

something passed my thought..

does ALONE mean the same as LONELY??

Thinking it thoroughly  made me realized that they are totally different even though they may have similarities.

Being ALONE will not make you feel lonely.

ALONE. It is a state when you are the only one in a certain place at a certain time.

No one around you. No can see you. No one can hear you.

LONELY. It is a feeling when even though there are many people around you but still you feel alone.

Many can see you. Many can hear you. But no one really cares.

Many times, I have been alone. But I never felt so lonely before since you left me.

No matter how many other stars are there at night.. the only thing i see is the MOON..

there are things that only the eyes can see..

only the ears could hear..

only the heart could feel..

the eyes can see the gloominess in your face that you don't want others to see..

the ears can hear the words to express how you feel.

and the heart can feel what those words would really mean..

.

i dream you are the one that can see, hear and feel deep within...

no need to say a thing.

to know what it really means.

But a simple YOU would know everything...

Nothing was never everything..

and Something could never reach everything..

----Y--O--_-----

...---==IT's LIFE==----...

"Please jump"... *say it's not over..

A line from a movie I just saw a while ago.

I never intended to watch this movie before during it's premiere. I didn't find anything interesting about it  that time.

But knowing what it's really all about. It fascinated me.

Doing something is not all about reaching your goal.

It's not about how long or how far you've traveled.

It's not about winning or losing.

It is all about learning along the way.

The things that you will never learn at school.

Simple things that life has to offer.

What life is all about.

It is about giving your best.

Living your life at the fullest.

Not minding what will be left.

And just being yourself.

It is about the footsteps you left behind.

The marks that made you who you are.

A bethink on how you get that far.

That you, yourself, can glimpse off the pace.

I've had a number of battles.

Had some gains, as well as some losses.

It was all part of it.

Part of the experiences that made,

the self I am now.

I know I failed some.

But I stood still and kept the fight going.

Not knowing what might come next.

I will keep on running.

Even though I don't know,

Where will be heading.

Because I know that something's waiting for me.

Along the way, and up to the climb.

Hoping you'll be there, too.

WILL I MISS YOU? I GUESS NOT...

For so long, I have been wondering why I rarely feel that I miss someone.


Even though almost everyone around me misses everyone.


Exchanging words like "I miss you" and other words to express how they long to see that person.


I don't know to myself why I don't feel the same way as almost all of them.


Am I that so weird?


I, myself, tried to use those words. "I miss you".


I didn't feel it that much. It's just like saying something I am not fully aware of.


I did it so as not to harm other people.


Because it is nicer to say something that I don't truly feel rather than no response at all.


But as I tried to think things up.


I have come up to the idea why I don't "miss" people especially even the most important persons in my life.


The word that I was looking for, the whole time, was "SECURED".


Even though I am so far away from my loved ones. I am secured that nothing will change.


I know to myself that I have them inside my heart.


That no matter what happens. "I KNOW WHAT I FEEL AND I FEEL WHAT I KNOW."


There are no further questions to asked.




I just realized, if I will "miss" someone. It just might portend that SOMETHING IS WRONG.




If you will try to look the meaning of "miss" in the dictionary, it is all about failures.


Failure at something which should have been done.






I didn't say that you should not miss someone. But this is how I am.


I am not missing you because I know that I have you no matter how far you are.








With all of this thoughts, now I know something was wrong back then.


And I hope that it will still get right, not to waste everything and its worth.


And I hope it won't be too late.

there's a time for everything.. but i guess my watch doesn't work anymore..

Everything should be just simple. What you see is what you get. What you hear is what you will believe.

But I guess I was ALL wrong. It is not always what you see is the truth and not everything you hear people say to you is true.

But what can I do? I have always been so gullible. Believing in everything that you said, which I thought was completely true.

I have trust in everything that you say or should I say is that I HAD trust in all of the things you've said.

Every single word you uttered was hammered into my brain. But I guess it just left holes that I thought once was whole.

All the things that was said had gone by with the wind as the time passes by. Leaving no single trace of it all.

I don't know if there is still something left to believe in; all i know is that I gave it faultless but please don't leave it all so desolated.

I never asked for more than just one thing. You have given it all spontaneously. No questions asked. Just thought that believing all of those would be enough. But as always, I was wrong. It was not enough. I don't even know if there something to spare.

Let me ask something. Were all of those lies? Or there is just no truth and no sense in all of the things you said?

I have tried my best to apprehend. But I can't stand any more lies or even just a single lie from you. Or should I say, your lame excuses. I have said this and even stressed to you. "Don't ever lie. It's better if you would not tell me anything but make sure that I will not know that there's is something you are hiding from me."

I don't know what to do. I guess I'd end up again to what I know I do best.

Suppressing and repressing it all. But I guess I will leave just one of those good memories before it.

I know it was all my fault. No matter what it will turn out. It all started in me. In my absurd dream.

I didn't say I want this to end. I just want to rest for a while. 

It was just like holding an ice in my hand. 
No matter how cold it is, it will still hurt you.

I feel like I am getting numb and I am not liking it. 

I don't want to lose grasp on it.

But I don't want it to end up in frostbite, so frigid, cold and can feel warm no more.

....

When the hope is gone... what is there left for... ='(

But I hope, there is something left to hope for.. 0.0

yesterday--today--tomorrow

"i never expected that this will still happen",, 

but i guess it never really happened and it never will after all,

it was a mere creation of my imagination.

it was just a dream of yesterday,

that turned into my tomorrow's nightmare..