WILL I MISS YOU? I GUESS NOT...

For so long, I have been wondering why I rarely feel that I miss someone.


Even though almost everyone around me misses everyone.


Exchanging words like "I miss you" and other words to express how they long to see that person.


I don't know to myself why I don't feel the same way as almost all of them.


Am I that so weird?


I, myself, tried to use those words. "I miss you".


I didn't feel it that much. It's just like saying something I am not fully aware of.


I did it so as not to harm other people.


Because it is nicer to say something that I don't truly feel rather than no response at all.


But as I tried to think things up.


I have come up to the idea why I don't "miss" people especially even the most important persons in my life.


The word that I was looking for, the whole time, was "SECURED".


Even though I am so far away from my loved ones. I am secured that nothing will change.


I know to myself that I have them inside my heart.


That no matter what happens. "I KNOW WHAT I FEEL AND I FEEL WHAT I KNOW."


There are no further questions to asked.




I just realized, if I will "miss" someone. It just might portend that SOMETHING IS WRONG.




If you will try to look the meaning of "miss" in the dictionary, it is all about failures.


Failure at something which should have been done.






I didn't say that you should not miss someone. But this is how I am.


I am not missing you because I know that I have you no matter how far you are.








With all of this thoughts, now I know something was wrong back then.


And I hope that it will still get right, not to waste everything and its worth.


And I hope it won't be too late.